I told you I've been trying to find my mojo...
Here's the thing about finding your mojo.
When you are living life and you are not happy,
and you KNOW you should be...
you KNOW you should be counting your blessings,
but you keep having this feelings of frustrations, anger, negativity,
you have to figure out what's wrong, what you don't like, and make changes.
OK, I'm going to say this out loud....
I don't like...
living in chaos
being too busy.
I don't like....
having an appointment or someplace to be every day of the week.
I don't like...
living in a messy house.
Even if I'm living in one room.
I want time to be creative. To garden. To feed my soul.
Not to mention the culture shock.
What culture shock you say....I only moved 20 minutes away.
We'll talk about culture shock later.
huuu huuu huuuuuu... lions and tigers and bears oh my.
And since we've started building this house...my life has been all of the above.
I will divide this post into segments.....
Part I - Living in chaos....
I THOUGHT... when we got moved I would be able to get caught up.
I THOUGHT...I would have everything neatly tucked away in one room. Then when we finished building the house, we would just move stuff upstairs into place. I THOUGHT....For once in my life, I would have a place for everything and everything in it's place!
YUP...this is my kitchen table right now.
I have a car seat on my kitchen table.
Not a child's car seat
A. real. car. seat. on. my. kitchen. table.
We cannot build around this stuff.
SOLUTION.....I am going to start selling stuff.
That's how I got it all! Garage sales, flea markets, auctions, etc! I love going.
I wanted to do flea markets, I wanted to be creative and sell my work (I actually have!), and I thought we might have a B&B when we were all finished. I have all of the stuff to have one!
Well...if I do any of that stuff.....I will just have to re-buy. I'm gettin' rid of it!
I have a plan. Just like when I wanted to find out what my style was....I am going to go through stuff, and what I have duplicates of I will decide what makes ME happy. What I like the best, and everything else goes. It won't be easy, or quick.
I am finishing something.
ONE THING AT A TIME UNTIL IT's DONE. AND. I. MEAN. IT!
As I said, I do not like starting something, stopping in the middle of it, and starting something else.
And that is also how we have been living since we moved. "Hurry up" and do this "Hurry up" and do that....and nothing gets finished.
Before I start one more thing I WILL FINISH THIS BRICK PILE.
We have one more day of moving bricks.
And this is my friend Cheryl. How can I ever thank her? She helped me move every last brick.
My Shug says, "give her a brick!" I said I was planning on it!
But blogettes, We've been moving bricks for three to four weeks, usually two days a week, and it takes us about four hours to move two loads. That includes driving and stacking time. I told her yesterday she is a trooper. And I'm humbled that she has helped me so much. She had asked me to join a gym with her and I said, "I would never last...I'm not a gym girl, I'm not an indoor girl, I have to be outside in the summer. But I do know how we can get exercise!" I wish I would have had a camera in my hand, to show you her face, when she first saw this brick pile!
I have arm muscles now....
and an aircast for tennis elbow.
Feel free to tell me how you survive the chaos.
To be continued.....