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Thursday, May 23, 2013

MOJO Part I


 OK...so getting back to the mojo thing.....
 I told you I've been trying to find my mojo...

Here's the thing about finding your mojo. 

When you are living life and you are not happy,
and you KNOW you should be...
you KNOW you should be counting your blessings,
but you keep having this feelings of frustrations, anger, negativity,
you have to figure out what's wrong, what you don't like, and make changes.

OK, I'm going to say this out loud....

I don't like...
living in chaos
unfinished business
being too busy.

I don't like....
having an appointment or someplace to be every day of the week.

I don't like...
living in a messy house.   
Even if I'm living in one room.  

I want time to be creative.   To garden.  To feed my soul.
 
Not to mention the culture shock.  
What culture shock you say....I only moved 20 minutes away. 
We'll talk about culture shock later. 
huuu huuu huuuuuu...  lions and tigers and bears oh my.

And since we've started building this house...my life has been all of the above.  

I will divide this post into segments.....

Part I - Living in chaos....

I thought....
I THOUGHT... when we got moved I would be able to get caught up.
I THOUGHT...I would have everything neatly tucked away in one room.  Then when we finished building the house, we would just move stuff upstairs into place.   I THOUGHT....For once in my life, I would have a place for everything and everything in it's place!







YUP...this is my kitchen table right now.  
I have a car seat on my kitchen table.
Not a child's car seat
A. real. car. seat. on. my. kitchen. table.

 AND

 This is the room everything was going to be tucked away in...
It looks like this now....
BUT THIS..IS..UPSTAIRS...(back off peeps...I'm bearing my soul here.  It's not easy)

We cannot build around this stuff. 
 SOLUTION.....I am going to start selling stuff. 
Garage sales.....Internet.....etc....
That's how I got it all! Garage sales, flea markets, auctions, etc!  I love going.
I wanted to do flea markets, I wanted to be creative and sell my work (I actually have!), and I thought we might have a B&B when we were all finished.  I have all of the stuff to have one!
teapots...teacups....plates....
Well...if I do any of that stuff.....I will just have to re-buy.  I'm gettin' rid of it!

I have a plan.  Just like when I wanted to find out what my style was....I am going to go through stuff, and what I have duplicates of I will decide what makes ME happy.  What I like the best, and everything else goes.  It won't be easy, or quick.

But first....
I am finishing something.
ONE THING AT A TIME UNTIL IT's DONE. AND. I. MEAN. IT!

As I said, I do not like starting something, stopping in the middle of it, and starting something else. 
And that is also how we have been living since we moved.  "Hurry up" and do this "Hurry up" and do that....and nothing gets finished.
 




Before I start one more thing I WILL FINISH THIS BRICK PILE.
We have one more day of moving bricks.

And this is my friend Cheryl.  How can I ever thank her?  She helped me move every last brick. 
My Shug says, "give her a brick!"  I said I was planning on it!
  But blogettes, We've been moving bricks for three to four weeks, usually two days a week, and it takes us about four hours to move two loads.  That includes driving and stacking time.  I told her yesterday she is a trooper.  And I'm humbled that she has helped me so much.  She had asked me to join a gym with her and I said, "I would never last...I'm not a gym girl, I'm not an indoor girl, I have to be outside in the summer.  But I do know how we can get exercise!"  I wish I would have had a camera in my hand, to show you her face, when she first saw this brick pile!

 (my phone pictures are turning out distorted and I don't know why)

We have not lost one pound. 
I have arm muscles now....
and an aircast for tennis elbow. 

Feel free to tell me how you survive the chaos.

To be continued.....

Cindy Bee

10 comments:

  1. *grabbing cindy by the forearms, stares deep into her eyes*

    IT WILL BE OKAY. NO ONE IS BASING WHO YOU ARE BASED ON THE PILES YOU ARE ACCUMULATING. IF THEY ARE, SCREW 'EM. ITS THE JOURNEY NOT THE END RESULT. BREATHE. TAKE YOUR TIME BECAUSE YOU ARE RACING AGAINST YOURSELF - NO ONE ELSE. IT WILL BE OKAY. NOW MAKE US SOME MARGARITAS AND I TELL YOU ABOUT HOW WONDERFUL AND GIFTED YOU ARE...

    *releases arms, gives hug and then gently shoves cindy towards the patron*

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    1. Yes, people do base their opinion of me on the piles. I've been called a hoarder. I have. Maybe I am. I dunno...I don't have any dead cats or feces laying around the house....that I know of (teehee!) I'm going in right now to use my margarita making skills...how many should I make? Party time! Thanks for the hug.

      Cindy Bee

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    2. Hoarding is when you keep rubbish or when the quantity of your possesions decrease the value of your life and your home is not functioning as a home. There also has to be a compulsive part to it. You did not use to have a clutter problem, but now when your space is smaller the items are just too many. You see it clearly and have no problems taking measures so that your life quality will improve. That is not hoarding, that is collecting, and moving into a smaller space.

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  2. Cindy, If I could I would give you a big hug...I know what you are talking about...I lived in crazy chaos with my husband and four daughter, while we built on and put in new windows . I was in my early 20's...so easy when you are young to adjust. You are lucky honey, that you are as young as you are. I moved out here and had to sell, give away 36 years of stuff from one house. I am just going to pray for you Cindy...I know what the woman of the house has to go through to get it all together. I am totally amazed you have been able to do all you do. blessings to you.xoxo,Susie

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    1. Susie, I'm 54, almost 55! Thank you for the compliment. I didn't mean for this post to be a downer. I thought it was good I was figuring things out and getting a plan. (sigh)

      Cindy Bee

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  3. Big hugs - can't imagine how you are dealing with living in one room with all your things.

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    1. I'm living in one room, but all of my things are not in that room with me. They are ALL OVER the rest of the house!

      Cindy Bee

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  4. Cindy, Cindy, Cindy.........

    Oh, gosh, you cannot believe how I am identifying with this - let me count the ways...

    I feel that this has been my life for over 20 years.....sigh, sigh.
    "When you are living life and you are not happy,

    and you KNOW you should be..."

    and yes, I do count my blessings, but there are - frustrations. At things never getting finished. At disorder.
    It takes its toll.

    But, dear Cindy, I don't think it will take you as long to sort it out.

    We moved into our house while we were still building it.
    that was the problem.

    Sorry, you just caught me at the wrong (or right)moment. I had to vent.

    Sigh....

    cheers
    Fi

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    1. Fi,
      That is EXACTLY what we are doing. We moved into our house, and we are building it! But I'm doing better. I always feel better if I have a plan. It gives me hope.

      Cindy Bee

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Cindy Bee