I'm one of the lucky ones

I'm sitting here in the dark. We are on our third day without power and at the moment I feel like crying. I'm just tired and I know it. I couldn't sleep last night.  I'm one of the lucky ones. My Uncle let us borrow a generator to keep all of of our food in the freezer from spoiling that I "put up" throughout the year.  My Shug took part of the day off of work yesterday to get the generator going. Its loud. We bought a little propane heater to keep our room warm. We have water from a flowing well that I'm 'fetching' to drink and wash our face and brush our teeth with. This cell phone in my hand, charging from the generator, is the only contact I have with the outside world...and its working.
I have my parents who have offered us a place to stay numerous times. If I had children I'd be there. I did go there yesterday for a shower and breakfast. Its weird. Their area looks normal. Not even limbs down. 
I feel like I should be doing more to help. My Shug says I need to stay here. While he works I need to make sure the place doesn't freeze (29F right now), burn down from the propane heater, or get looted!  We don't have looters in our area right now, that I know of but some subdivisions that got hit have them. They were warning people on Facebook to look out for three guys with backpacks and wheelbarrows in one neighborhood. Pathetic.
My Shug and I looked outside our door on Sunday. We've never seen anything like it. Total white out from wind and rain. They reported that two tornados touched down in Kokomo on Sunday. Some people havent even recovered from the flooding we had last spring.
Our town, the neighborhood I used to live in...the one where we just sold our house...was hit by  one of the tornadoes. I drove by our old house and it was ok, as was the other houses on that street. But that seemed to be the only street untouched in that area. Devastation all around. The businesses, some that just opened a few months ago, are leveled. Just a couple blocks over, a house was lifted off of its foundation and moved to the middle of the road. The park I used to take the boys to when I would attempt to teach them how to play baseball is a mess. No trees left standing. The golf course is the same. Many businesses are trying to reopen if they just had a little damage. Where my Shug works you can see outside in some places.  The assisted living place my mother in law lives at is without power. We have a feeling it will be awhile before Our little community gets power since places like that are more important.
On Facebook they said hundreds of students and adults have been helping clean up the mess. God bless them. They are asking for volunteers and contributions.  But My Shug says I should stay here.
When I  went to check on our old neighborhood I did not go see the devastation. The streets are closed off. They asked people to not come by unless you are the home or business owner. Those areas have 6pm to 6 am curfews. My Shug went by some of it on his way to work and told me. And I've seen it on Facebook and in the paper my Parents gave me. It took me three different ways to get to their house yesterday because of downed trees in our area. It's the trees that took out our power lines.
Yup, I'm one of the lucky ones.  I have family, food, heat, and water. I keep reading about it on facebook....like it is happening somewhere else.  I'm going to go back to sleep and dream of white sand and warm water. Or maybe just having electricity!  And wake up in a better mood. The sun is going to shine today!  I can't wait!!!  I'm going to have a good winter.....I'm going to have a good winter......
Cindy Bee

Ps. Thanks again for all of your kind comments. They are so comforting right now.